it just happened...
after confused thingy, desperate with the "old thing", on the way to my healing thingy...something come even am not really sure coz' lotz of a - z thingy factor & i thought it will really hard to let go the old thing *YESH...i really did*.

it came really fast in my new chapter of life after the "old thing", not realized at first...but after all this things happened & the attentions slowly fade away make me feeling loss...

Honestly...
am feeling comfy...but still lotz of thingy in my head *this & that & not really sure*, but i want those attentions back ! *sounds really selfish..huh !*

it's like GOD says: "Look child I still ♥ you, still blessed u, u still live your life after the "old thing" happened."
hahaha...maybe GOD give me all this "blinking moment" to make me realized that my life still beautiful & wonderful, and one thing..that HE still give me a warm Heart :)

Thanx FATHER for this experience...will keeping my "precious thing" in safety place, till' YOU open it & giving it to me :) Thanx for this teary smile...Thanx for created me strong outside :) *inside am fragile...ALERT ! Lolz*

Rite now 3:00 AM in the morning & i still can't sleep...after a few hours ago texted *feels like stranger :(* hhmm...later i think should make a distance to make me strong & back to my "safety place" *maybe it really hard coz i'm SELFISH !* maybe this is one of my healing moment after hard to let go the "old thing", maybe this is the TESTING that GOD give me *arrgghhh....really tiring to passing all this moment again*, my mind not really into it & i already blocked it, but honestly why...tears drop from my eyes *after the strange thingy*, but am not really hurt...confusing >__<

still dunno what i feel... maybe i must get over it & passing this testing before am getting deeply into it *SURELY*, still waiting the trully "gift" from GOD :)
wish me luck... *11:11* ;)

Now Playing: I THINK GOD CAN EXPLAIN by SPLENDER

arrghh...i miss this blogging thingy moment...
miss to write what i feel, miss to post the pic that i like, miss my productive writing moment after midnight, miss many things here... ;)

Think i'm gonna start blogging again *frequently*
most of my blogging moment starting when i'm feeling depressed with all the situations around me and what my heart feels, it feels like yesterday happened when i'm feeling stressful with my uni thingy, but Thanx GOD all this confusing thingy is almost over =D *still bless me LORD*

i'm writing this thingy while i'm waiting for my lecturer, here..this place make me flashback few years ago, when i'm always waiting for next class, when i had lotz of curious thingy inside my head, when i'm always guessed..., a smile, thoughts, curiousity, falling :) yeah...some place sumtimez make us remembering *again* all the thing happened.

I used to hate all the things happened and i used to smile too LOLz
lotz of things happened and Thanx JC i'm still strong and always can smile :) 

Life's Moving On...
I'm Looking Forward...
Never Looking Back on My Past...

hhhmmm...gonna enjoy this moment of mine, when there's no one inside,
someday i'm gonna miss it ;) *trying to throw all the bad memories away, think i did it hahahaha*

p.s: lil' bit sleepy :(

geeezz...what sud i do now... i'm not type of girl who give up easily, i always fight till the last. Just like now...i'm fighting, but this bad circumtances made me nuts, at first i already estimated that everything will be done at it's time, OMG...can you imagine next monday i must collect my thing but till NOW...everything still in progress... *FATHER please give me strength* still in progress till next monday... *prepare fo' the worst* but i says: I'll Never Ever Regret fo' Everything Happen in My Life *i MUST have a big Heart ♥*, if This Way is a DEAD END, There Must be Another Way-good way *Fuck-off with Other's Thought, I'll Live It My Life w/o Any of Negative Thoughts*

Still counting time... OMG...i'm getting nervous (_ _") tick tock...tick tock...tick tock... will i... Now...listening to Jay Chou - An Jing & another jay song *my fave singer*, chatting with my beztiez *this earlier morning my beztiez will back to Taipei :'(*, playing game *trying to be multitask...lolz*,  then a lil' flashback a few years ago of my life, hmmm...what can i say, i know i didn't get everything i WANT *thanx GOD, HE always gave what i NEED*, so much losing *every aspects*, but i learn a lotzzz, i learn to be strong, yeah...Life teach me many things, it made me stronger *even sumtimez i'm hurt* but at least i always smile & pretend that everything is okay...and yesh...everything get better & better... *JESUS...please always give me UR strength* Now..i'm here...(really) can't wait to "Fly" and spread my "Wings",                    Still wondering...OMG i'm a type of a Focus person, so i must doing it one by one, sumtimez i hate being a focus & non-multitask person >__< should i running with Time... near to my Quarter Century... i think i need a Detachment method *again* :) and yesh...Life still goes on, so i'll celebrate it in many ways ;) *Mellow mode: ON*

Damn...why dis feelin' come & pop-up again, already forgot...but juz suddenly appear again *sigh*, i hate feelin' attached, dunno what will happen in future...maybe i STILL... dunno...but i juz did... already disappear... then... appear again *suddenly* (_ _") i've already had a feelin' long time ago *not only me, my friends already got one too*...but dunno dat thing will happen or not *juz my intuition*, if dat thing happen maybe i'll feel guilty *coz i've already known*...or maybe happy, but...i'm not dat kind of girl... juz want everythin' be fine & dunno what will happen next, we're juz human being, when GOD want it...when GOD say it...it will happen immedieately & we can't force what HE want to do with us. SOMEDAY we'll know... or...i should countin' in... ....................................... hhmmm......nope, juz let everythin' happen naturally... coz...there's nothin' eternal in this life :)

It's 2:43 in the morning and i'm still awake, OMG...it's very hard for me to sleep lately, everything inside my mind keep running around, so how could i sleep (╯︵╰,), when i'm going to sleep my mind keep reminding me with all those things. Too many this and that, should i say that i'm tired with all this thingy, feels like a Zombie lately...and it's almost my DEADLINE too (╥_╥) Still wondering what will happen next... will i fail?? i hope NOT bless me GOD

it's early mornin and i can't sleeppp.... :(, there's nobody wake up BUT me...

i can't sleep and feel really thirsty *lately the weather is really weird, yupz...there's RAIN but the air is STILL hot and make me dehydrate*, soo...i'm tryin to find sumthin in my refrigerator...then i found dis Nu Green Tea :) *made me fresh..juz fo' a while...lolz*

p.s: Now...i'm startin to see d "RAINBOW"...after all dis "RAIN" happened *too much STANDING in THE RAIN*, i can SMILE now, juz let go and i'm relieved... :)
gonna sleep now...really tired...